Who turned on the sprinklers?

Fire fizzled out as I predicted. Which is fine; it's probably better that way. Good thing is there's no pain. For the first time in my life (I think), a male-female romantic relationship has ended and there were no negatives feelings (on my side). No guilt, no pain, no feeling like I'm a horrible person. This is awesome. :D If only all my dating experiences could end like this.

On a different note, the bank didn't call today which means I should call the loan officer tomorrow...huzzah! (not). Fingers, toes, and eyes crossed that I get pre-approved for a loan to buy a house.

Playing with fire is fun

and sure, I have a lot of burn scars, but scars are cool!! Atlhough, this time feels different from the last. Of course, there are similarities, but I'm older, wiser, and less attached. He's fun and cute, but I'm not emotionally invested. And I think that's the difference. Unlike the last one, there are no emotions involved. If we date cool; if not whatever, either way my eyes are gonna be looking around for something better.

It's the end of the world as we know it

and I feel fine :)


So, I hooked up with my friend's brother last week at a party I threw. We've been talking ever since, but I feel awkward when I hang out with my friend now, especially after Thursday night when I was jokingly telling ***** that he should hook with my sister instead of me and he kissed me and told me to do that to his brother/my friend.

I want to get married, and sometimes I wonder why. Especially after I talk to my parents about their marriage. I mean, really the only marriage I know fairly well, is one of many that I don't want. Why do I want to get married? Guess, it's a good thing there are no prospects in my life.

if you want to destroy my sweater

pull this thread as I walk away....


so I know why I look like a 17yo it's cuz I'm incapable of looking sexy, therefore everyone thinks I'm young!


I was looking at pics from last night and I'm the only one there who lacks the sexy quality. It's ok, cept when everyone is looking sexi and then I'm standing there going "can I get out of this pic real quick please?"

cute, i can do
pretty, sure why not
gorgeous, we'll see...maybe...depending on who you ask? Josh will agree that's a no
sexy, NEVER yeah, I just look retarded or funny. the ONE "sexy" pic I have is posted here, and I was looking at it and it's not that sexy.

oh well what can you do?